girls VS women

ambiguismus

Girls want to control the man in their life.
Grown women know that if he’s truly hers, he doesn’t need controlling.


Girls check you for not calling them.
Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn’t.


Girls are afraid to be alone.
Grown women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.


Girls ignore the good guys.
Grown women ignore the bad guys.


Girls make you come home.
Grown women make you want to come home.


Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.


Girls try to monopolize all their man’s time (i.e., don’t want him hanging with his friends).
Grown women realize that a lil’ bit of space makes the ‘together time’ even more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends.


Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.


Girls want to be spoiled and ‘tell’ their man so.
Grown women ‘show’ him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his ‘manhood’.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Grown women know that was just one man.


Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection, ignoring all ‘signs’.
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don’t always love you back-and move on, without bitterness.


Girls will read this, copy it, and need to get an attitude.
Grown women will read this and pass it on to other Grown women ;)

xoxo,

grown up woman.

Two Thousand & Ten, everybodeeeh!!

My New Year's resolution is: To quit making resolution.

hehehehe..

saya di candid pas beberapa jam sebelum tahun baru.

thanks dear :)

wow setahun ini berjalan cepat sekali ya. sampai saya merasa amnesia hal-hal apa saja yang sudah terjadi selama 2009. yaaa ngga lupa-lupa banget sih hehe tapi ya adalah bagian-bagian yang emang teramat sangat ngga penting untuk diingat. heehe..

akhir tahun ini sungguh tak diduga tak disangka. banyak sekali berkah yang diberikan sama Tuhan untuk saya. dari mulai skripsi yang terkatung itu. molor satu bulan. untung dosen pembimbing saya baik! (Mr. Mari Sudhartha dan Mbak Lies makasih banyak!! saya ngga akan pernah lupa loh! tapi maaf belum sempat ke kampus ngasih soft copy. Mas Aldo juga makasih banyak untuk tidak mempersulit jalan materi skripsi saya. makasih banyak semuanya!!) Alhamdulilah ahirnya kelar juga tepat di hari terahirrrrrrr bgt, super duper ahir, ibaratnya kalo masih belum dikumpulin mungkin besoknya itu adalah 2012 yang mana kata ramalan suku maya kiamat, terjadi 2 tahun lebih awal buat saya. hehe gilak!! 3taun studi di tarki bukan sesuatu yang menyenangkan loh.. jadi kerja keras saya selama 2bulan "ngegeber" materi itu terbayar sudah puasnya! tapi dibalik semua penderitaan ngampus disitu (high heels, kemeja dan rok super ketat hehe ngga denk saya bercanda itu berlebihan!, dosen yang ehm killer ehm! belum lagi sengatan matahari ganda campurannya!) itu juga kan dapet cerita lain yang ngga akan bisa dilupain. dan hanya terjadi sekali seumur hidup! hehe.. haduh ga kebayang gimana akan kangen sama jajan lidi dan martabak tahu kantin, soto pak yoas, ayam cah jamur yono, ibu sotoku tercinta yang udah hafal takeran sambal garam dan jeruk di soto ayam saya tiap makan siang!, bapak dengan 'dunhill gaboleh diketeng-marlboro boleh' hahaha belum lagi es teh manis yang menggiurkan di 3x bulan puasa yang saya lewatin disana! bedeng oh bedeng!! haaaaaaaa.. hampir menangis saya dibuatnya.. mengingat masa-masa kejayaan itu haha..

bergeser ke bulan selanjutnya, liburan itu. liburan dalam rangka pengen jadi pengangguran dulu itupun menghasilkan sesuatu yang ga pernah saya bayangkan sebelumnya. ketemu orang yang entah dari mana asalnya. mungkin mars? atau antah berantah? namun setelah diidentifikasi ternyata letaknya hanya berjarak beberapa kilo dari rumah nenenk, hanya melewati 2 pasar, beberapa kali ganti angkot (nah ini saya ngga tau pasti, belom di tes! hehe) yah ngga jauh lah. masih lebih jauh rawamangun-cempaka putih hehe...

i knew it! i knew that day i had a blind date with destiny!! ;) menyenangkan sekali ternyata yah ngerasain deg-degannya lagi jatuh cinta (anjir bahasa gw mana tahan!!) tapi dengan chemistry yang.. wuedannnn!! luar biasa lah!! mega!! heheheh.. hmmm.. 

di November dapet panggilan. di kantor yang emang udah di impi-impikan sedari dulu.. sadis.. hehehe.. alhamdulilah. ini antara kesempatan dan keberuntungan ketemu nih! so here i am now! tapi yang jelas dengan usaha dan doa juga! ga gampang loh ngalahin 1 kelas kali 7 step untuk dapet 1 korsi disini.. hehe bangga banget lah bisa dapet apa yang saya mau dari hasil usaha sendiri.. beuhhhh puasnya kaya orang ngupil trus dapet! nah iya gitu!

Sekarang semuanya mulai jalan. dan di 2010 ini belajar bisa adaptasi dan jalanin semuanya bersamaan dengan kondisi yang harus jauh lebih baik dan mature dari sebelumnya.

semua missi saya tentang masa depan di 2009 alhamdulilah udah dibuka jalannya. sekarng tinggal sayanya mau bener-benr dan bisa serius atau ngga. tapi percaya deh, saya bukan tipe orang yang suka menyia-nyiakan kesempatan ko! heheeh.. mudah-mudahan semua yang di 2009 udah ada, bisa lebih baik lagi di 2010.

ga muluk ko, asal mamih saya sehat dan bahagia, pacar saya yang jauh disana tetep sayang sama saya dan punya waktu untuk paling ngga sms saya dan saling bertukar cerita, sahabat-sahabat saya yang hebat itu akan tetap begini.. saya seneng banget. ngga bisa dibayar pake uang. makasih kalian semua udah hadir di hidup saya :')

First Monday of 2010. 

It's so fresh! So full of great energy! 

*Blah. Who am I kidding? In any year, Monday still sucks*

 

-breakin' point-

I find myself just filling my time with anything to keep the thought of you from my mind.. I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way. You can call me if you find that you have something to say, And I'll tell you ; I want you to know its a little fucked up that I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating telling you that I've had it with you and your career.........

warning : global warming!

"Be soft. Dont let the world make you hard.

don't let the pain make you hate.

Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.

Take pride eventho' the world may disagree, you still believe it should be a beautiful place.."

Last 2 days the wheater in Jakarta seems freakin insane. it was heavy rainy yesterday. i feel like its 6pm when in reality its 11am!! today the sun shines extremely hot! tambah 1 derajat jakarta beneran step gw rasa!! and the next 3 hours the wheather changed to the opposite situation.. hujan badai lagi!! omaygattt!! saya ngga bawa payung hari ini.. haduhduhduh.. mudah2an aja ngga macet dan bisa pulang dengan selamat. amin. ayodong plis stop buang sampah sembarangan. atleast itu yg bisa gw lakuin sekarang. karena sepedahan ke kantor masih rada males.. hehe.. ayolah jaga lingkungan. jangan sampedah kejadian 2012 kaya di pelem kejadian!

So which one do you choose:

Peace on earth or earth in pieces ?

u decide. u act.

"Never knew I needed.."

for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing..

for the ending of my first begin

and for the rare and unexpected friend
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily

(ever after)

the way you smile and how you comfort me

(with your laughter)

i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

who'd knew that i'd be here

(who'd knew that i'd be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly

(so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy
sitting with you right here, right here next to me

Man, u're the best! :)

happy mother's day, mommas!! :)

my mom is the one who care everything about me the most.

my mom never forbids me to go out, but always worries if I'm not back yet..

my mom not angry to me whenever I've done wrong, and she always defends me in front of others

my mom never shows up her love but always proves it by doing...

mom sometime seems don't care with me.. but always protects me.

mom doesn't wipe my tears.. but she teaches me how to be strong!!

mom lets me fall to be strong.. but never lets me hurt, because she'll cure me..

mom wills give her fortune, happiness, even life just for see me smile.. :')

mom never interferes my business but always supports for everything I do

my mom is the one who still wakes up when I'm sick..

mom always cure..

mom always cheers..

mom always caress..

 

she's the one who never hates me even I'm the worst in the world

she loves me more than others do..

 

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOTHERS :)

together we laugh, together we cry, together we face this world

with my dearest love.. mamih..

my love, my hero, mamah..

 

Letters To My Future : Best of the Best

Dear Mr. Anissa

I'm honest. We've already established that. I can be brutally honest. We already established that too. That's why, I've come to the conclusion, that there are a few things in life I'm not afraid to admit. At one time, I was afraid to admit them. I kept them on the lowdown, tight, in lock-and-key fashion in my soul, fearing that if anyone found out that I'd be labeled even more of a freak than I felt my disability had already made me.

But that was a long time ago, when I was younger and far too impressionable. I recently asked myself, "What the heck is the big deal?" If I'm afraid of admitting these things, does that mean I'm somehow ashamed of myself or even afraid to admit things to myself?

I can't stand for that. SO...here I go. Here are some things I've never experienced. And, no I don't think I'm pathetic. Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe, something great IS going to come my way? It just happening. and I know it will better. Someday. with you.
Oh gosh, this is beginning to make me look absolutely pathetic, isn't it? That, or I'm incredibly attractive for my brutal honesty. Yes, that's it. I'm going to go with the second option.

What are some things you've never done that you've always kept secret? It's time to let those secrets OUT!


xoxo,
Me