"kalo aku lagi susah, aku selalu inget suatu hari nanti..."

..selama ini aku selalu setia disamping kamu.. apapun yg orang bilang.. buat aku kmu tetep yg terbaik.. susah.. seneng.. semuanya aku jalanin.. aku terima apa adanya.. tapi liat.. liat apa yang kamu lakuin ke aku? :'( 

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You know those purity rings that say True Love Waits? I don't have one, even though I wholeheartedly believe in its message. But you know what I'd really like to see? A T-shirt that says Love Takes Time...

I'd love to be with someone. But guess what? I'm not about to change what I love about myself, morals and all, for some person who I just met. I'm not going to abandon my old life for some random new person, either. True, I might have a lot of solitary days ahead of me, but when I do meet the person that wants me for me and nothing more, I won't have to wonder. I'll know because, as you know, true love does wait. And anyone who doesn't want you to wait or doesn't respect you? Then, damnit, you know that's not true love. I don't know about you, but I'm not about to settle for anything less than the real thing. I have too much respect for myself to do things any other way. I hope you do too, friends.

 If the other person is worth it, I mean really, really worth it, they'll respect your needs and desires to go at a pace you feel comfortable with.

That's beautiful, if you ask me. Where you really get to know the soul of the other person.Why allow things to move so fast, so quickly? If it's meant to last, it will. Why not slow down and smell the roses along the way? Nothing in this world is more important than taking care of yourself, and putting yourself first. xoxo

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"Jani, kamu bahagia hidup sama aku?"
"kenapa kamu nanya kayak gitu?"
"gpp.. kamu bahagia?"
"Aku bahagia.."
"Kamu harus bahagia, Jani, suatu hari nanti aku pasti bisa bikin kamu bahagia."
"Aku percaya.."

the most touchy song ever! : end of the road

Girl you know we belong together
I have no time for you to be playing
With my heart like this
You'll be mine forever baby, you just see
We belong together
And you that I'm right
Why do you play with my heart?
Why do you play with my mind?
Said we'd be forever, said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave me
And never say good-bye?
When I can't sleep at night without holding you tight
Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry
Pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinning around and around
Although we've come to the end of the road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Come to the end of the road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Girl, I know you really love me
You just don't realize
You've never been there before
It's only your first time
Maybe I'll forgive you
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and I
Can you love me again like you loved me before?
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me, don't let me down
Although we've come to the end of the road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
Come to the end of the road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Girl I'm here for you
All those times of night when you just hurt me
And just run out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it, I just didn't care
You just don't understand how much I love you do you?
I'm here for you
I'm not out to go out and cheat on you all night
Just like you did baby but that's all right
Hey, I love you anyway
And I'm still gonna be here for you 'till my dying day baby
Right now, I'm just in so much pain baby
'Coz you just won't come back to me
Will you? Just come back to me
Lonely
Lonely
Lonely
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me go..

if only life were perfect, Dad.

Over this week, I've had a revelation about someone. I suppose it was something I'd known all along, but was just too afraid to admit it - finally - to myself. Isn't it said when you realize that someone is never going to be the person you thought or wanted them to be? It's a pretty heartbreaking moment. Needless to say, though..

 I expected more from him and maybe that was my mistake. i gave him every chance to prove it.. funny how things look darker in the light of day.. u're not who I thought you were.. and if I'm being honest, that's what really hurts :( sorry, but i'm gonna keep on doin it anyway..

 

 

....you say a lot of stuff, and don't you know?  you talk a lot of talk for someone so small, but you never say you're sorry..!!

those promises you whispered on the telephone turns out it was all a bunch of nothing. just static in the background.. I think back on all those time when you fed me all those lies, remember? I'm still not quite sure why I ever believed them.. but now that I know, it all makes sense in the end : Why you'd never say you're sorry.

Inspired By : Alice In Wonderland

 

  

 

The book used to scare me as a kid...I always had this weird, irrational fear that I fall down some giant hole. But I'm sort of excited for watching Alice In Wonderland next week with my besties. these photos by photographer Elena Kalis perfectly capture the whimsical and fantasy dream world Alice discovers? "alice in waterland"

Are you seeing the movie, friends?

dirty mind - lonely heart..

 

It is with a great sadness and a heavy heart that I write this letter to you. Do you remember the days when we used to run through the halls of our high school? Or how about when you told me my body was a wonderland and that you'd never let my head hit the bed without your hand behind it? And when you told my mommy that she should be good to me because I'll be a mother someday? Well, you just made me fall in love with you, didn't you? It was almost as if I couldn't help; your charm and alluring mystique were simply too powerful to resist.

My gosh, it seems like it was just yesterday, doesn't it? But, sadly, those happy days are gone. I've been given a hard lesson in battle studies, and I'm sorry, but I just don't see us having a future together. It was fun while it lasted, but as all good love affairs go, some eventually have to come to an end.

 

 I won't lie and pretend it was me so your ego won't be bruised. The truth is, well, it's not me...it's you. Or, rather, it's some interesting revelations you shared in a recent cover story for Rolling Stone.

“All I want to do now is f–k the girls I’ve already f–ked, because I can’t fathom explaining myself to somebody who can’t believe I’d be interested in them, and they’re going, ‘But you’re John Mayer!’ So I’m going backwards to move forward. I’m too freaked out to meet anybody else.”

Wow. Talk about a less-than-tasteful mouthful of a revelation, huh? And here I thought I was the all-too-honest, over-sharer.

We're done. That's fine by me. But what's this I hear? You're friends with Taylor Swift? Is that what you young people call it in Hollywood these days?

 

You've already broken enough hearts here, John. Please don't go and break Taylor's too. She's too sweet of a girl for that. and why dont u be mine? :(

un-xoxo

no one knows where the time goes..

I know it might be boring to read lots of cheesy craps but I sometimes need to pour out my inner thoughts and writing is better than talking to a headshrinker who studied bullshits and tell what problems you’re having. No I don't have any problem (at the moment), I just feel like it's the time to share something personal. If you care enough, keep reading. If you don't, I'm gonna keep on typing anyway.

It all started when I read this :

" When faced with an uncertain future,
the question we truly hate to ask are the ones we fear we already know."

I don't know how to tell myself to stop thinking about the future and everything too much. It's hard to picture what it will be like in the months to come, but I can catch a glimpse of it with a contemplation. After last time's sucky drama I had, everything is runny smoothly now. It took a long time to finally have that perfect happiness which I hope, I deeply hope will last long. But you know how people say things could change drastically when it's beyond physical contact? I've always been far away from everyone I love but I taught myself to be patient though it actually kills. And this time will be hella harder since my heart skips a beat over and over. Too much thrill and awesomeness going on, I could die from imagining not having those anymore.

I'm scared of change. But I promise to work for it cos it's worth fighting for. And wherever that happiness comes from, I will always give all my heart even from a distance.

I love you mom & dad :')

quit smoking symptoms

constipation :

many smokers complain of constipation when they quit smoking.

insomnia :

it keeps u in a nervous panic that stops you being able to sleep.

Darn,i shouldn't have started smoking in the first place or i just shouldn't quit. Eating a whole papaya and drinking gallons of water is still not working for me. Is my intestine even still there? And my eye bags are like amy winehouse's smudged eyeliner when she got beat up by blake fielder.