-breakin' point-

I find myself just filling my time with anything to keep the thought of you from my mind.. I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way. You can call me if you find that you have something to say, And I'll tell you ; I want you to know its a little fucked up that I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating telling you that I've had it with you and your career.........

warning : global warming!

"Be soft. Dont let the world make you hard.

don't let the pain make you hate.

Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.

Take pride eventho' the world may disagree, you still believe it should be a beautiful place.."

Last 2 days the wheater in Jakarta seems freakin insane. it was heavy rainy yesterday. i feel like its 6pm when in reality its 11am!! today the sun shines extremely hot! tambah 1 derajat jakarta beneran step gw rasa!! and the next 3 hours the wheather changed to the opposite situation.. hujan badai lagi!! omaygattt!! saya ngga bawa payung hari ini.. haduhduhduh.. mudah2an aja ngga macet dan bisa pulang dengan selamat. amin. ayodong plis stop buang sampah sembarangan. atleast itu yg bisa gw lakuin sekarang. karena sepedahan ke kantor masih rada males.. hehe.. ayolah jaga lingkungan. jangan sampedah kejadian 2012 kaya di pelem kejadian!

So which one do you choose:

Peace on earth or earth in pieces ?

u decide. u act.

"Never knew I needed.."

for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing..

for the ending of my first begin

and for the rare and unexpected friend
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily

(ever after)

the way you smile and how you comfort me

(with your laughter)

i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

who'd knew that i'd be here

(who'd knew that i'd be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly

(so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy
sitting with you right here, right here next to me

Man, u're the best! :)

happy mother's day, mommas!! :)

my mom is the one who care everything about me the most.

my mom never forbids me to go out, but always worries if I'm not back yet..

my mom not angry to me whenever I've done wrong, and she always defends me in front of others

my mom never shows up her love but always proves it by doing...

mom sometime seems don't care with me.. but always protects me.

mom doesn't wipe my tears.. but she teaches me how to be strong!!

mom lets me fall to be strong.. but never lets me hurt, because she'll cure me..

mom wills give her fortune, happiness, even life just for see me smile.. :')

mom never interferes my business but always supports for everything I do

my mom is the one who still wakes up when I'm sick..

mom always cure..

mom always cheers..

mom always caress..

 

she's the one who never hates me even I'm the worst in the world

she loves me more than others do..

 

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOTHERS :)

together we laugh, together we cry, together we face this world

with my dearest love.. mamih..

my love, my hero, mamah..

 

Letters To My Future : Best of the Best

Dear Mr. Anissa

I'm honest. We've already established that. I can be brutally honest. We already established that too. That's why, I've come to the conclusion, that there are a few things in life I'm not afraid to admit. At one time, I was afraid to admit them. I kept them on the lowdown, tight, in lock-and-key fashion in my soul, fearing that if anyone found out that I'd be labeled even more of a freak than I felt my disability had already made me.

But that was a long time ago, when I was younger and far too impressionable. I recently asked myself, "What the heck is the big deal?" If I'm afraid of admitting these things, does that mean I'm somehow ashamed of myself or even afraid to admit things to myself?

I can't stand for that. SO...here I go. Here are some things I've never experienced. And, no I don't think I'm pathetic. Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe, something great IS going to come my way? It just happening. and I know it will better. Someday. with you.
Oh gosh, this is beginning to make me look absolutely pathetic, isn't it? That, or I'm incredibly attractive for my brutal honesty. Yes, that's it. I'm going to go with the second option.

What are some things you've never done that you've always kept secret? It's time to let those secrets OUT!


xoxo,
Me

girls come and go but true friends last forever..

there was a time in my life when girl friends came first…before boys, before family, before me. i would do anything for my friends. in my eyes, they were my world and therefore i was a damn good friend. the kind of friend who would make picture collages just because. the friend who always made sure to buy gifts and cards for lebarans and birthdays. the friend who would fight if it meant having my friend’s back. i was that friend…until those same “friend” broke my heart.
 

Lesson learened!! girls can be deceiving, malicious, bitchy, jealous and if you’re like me then you’ve already learned the hard way. we can complain about it and wonder why we don’t have more girl friends but the fact is there will always be girls like that, no matter how old we get. so do we continue to bitch about it or learn from it?

these days, i’ll admit i’m a hard person to get to know. i let very few people in. i trust little. i cannot handle bullshit. if the friendship is one sided, i’m out! super needy friends make me vomit. crazies don’t have a place in my life. i like competition but not amongst friends (unless we’re playing uno, then it’s on). i hate liars and yes i judge.

sounds harsh, i know, but being this way protects my heart and allows me to eliminate those that fake the funk while holding on to the ones that matter. in the end, it's all about the friendships that will last forever...forever friends...even if it’s a select few.

real friends are better than more friends.

{and just so you know, i’m a damn good forever friend}

xoxo, Anissa.

"Before you judge me, try hard to love me."

I just woke up from my real quick nap and cannot get my dream out of my head. I was at Michael's funeral, and his entire family was there. I was holding him, just squeezing him as hard as I could, and he was still alive. I was crying uncontrollably but I felt so much love and such a bond with him. I left for a minute and then found Michael again in the hallway. I went up to him to give him a kiss on the cheek, but instead he turned and kissed me on the lips. The Michael section of the dream ended there, but that is one dream I will never--and never want to--forget. I think, in some strange way, somehow, that was really Michael coming to me. I do believe in Heaven or Hell, and I know Michael is in a better place, and I am so glad I got to meet him in my dream the way I wanted to see him in this world; as my love.

I love you MJ. Forever.

My King

the FIRST post

Hello and welcome to my little place in Cyberspace! I'm glad you're here! I'm a part time program secretary with big dreams of working for a New York City glossy someday, so I thought it only prudent that I get on the blog bandwagon while blogging is still considered fresh, cool and hip. and i'm also a full time waiter, so i'll wait like forever for my so-faraway-hubby .. :)

What’s better than redefining love altogether? Injecting my own brand of quirkiness into it – in heavy doses. The way I see it, love and relationships are like a one-way street always under road construction. You can see your destination, but can't quite get there, right? And let's not even get started on all those confusing signs pointing every which way.

But really, what does it mean to love in today's world? What is it that keeps our blood pumping and our hearts racing? And why is it so damn hard to find The One? Come along for the journey; you might learn a thing or two about yourself along the way.

xoxo,
Anissa