finalé

"I could promise, to hold you, and to cherish you.

I could promise, to be there in sickness and in health.
I could say, til death do us part.
But I won't.
Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope.
And I do not stand here, on my wedding day, optimistic, or full of hope.

I am not optimistic, I am not hopeful.
I am sure.
I am steady.
And I know...

I'm a heart-man.
Take them apart, put them back together.
I hold them in my hands.
I am a heart man.
So this i am sure.
You are my partner, my lover, my very best friend.
My heart, my heart, beats for you.
and on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this:
I promise you, to lay my heart in the palm of your hands
I promise you, me."

-preston burke wedding vow. grey's anatomy season 3-

"MINI (meaningful) DIALOGUE"

Pencil  : I'm so sorry..

Eraser : For what? you didnt do anything wrong.

Pencil : I'm sorry cause you get hurt because of me. whenever i make a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. you get smaller and smaller everytime.. :'(

Eraser : That's true. but i dont really mind. You see, i was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. eventhough one of these days, I know I'll be gone and you have to replace me with the new one, I'm acctualy happy with my job.. So please stop worrying, i hate to see you sad.. :')

letters to my future husband : you make it easy..

• If you're an optimist, then I'm your challenge to conquer. 
• If you're a pessimist, then I am your worst expectation, but of course you've been expecting me, no?
• If you're religious, then I'm the God's tool to improve you.
• If you're an atheist, then I'm the proof that God does exist and He wants to punish you. LOL  
• If you're a Buddhist, then I am your Karma
• If you're a logic, the I'm the anti-you that keep universe in its place just like matter and anti-matter collided and made Universe. :))

there's no such thing as perfect relationship, just one good compromise...LOTS of compromises, that is.

-XOXO-

jealousy, look at me now..

Dear Jealousy :

The truth: You're pure evil. You've tried to ruin my life one too many times, so today, I'm saying NO MORE. It's time we broke up - or rather, it's time I dumped you and kicked your sorry behind to the curb.

You're a good trickster, I'll give you that. At first, you played it cool, but the second you get close, he pulls away or you pull away or, as is usually my case, you say something completely out of left field and you causeYOU) keep me wanting more because of course you know I want what I can't have. And you make me think you'll eventually help me get it. So you latch on to me.. the guy to run....fast. Either way, he (read:

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And this relationship is fine - even good - for awhile. You're one of those emotions that comes easily to me, so why try to change, why try to dig deeper when I can put myself on autopilot with you and just cruise down the highway at full speed?

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I've carried you with me my entire life - through summer filled with those blonde and perky girls who always got the guy just by batting a pretty lash..

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Now, I'm sorry, but this relationship just isn't working for me anymore. I've realized you're a user, and that's all you'll ever be. Taking and taking and just giving me back a version of myself with lower self-esteem and a bad case of the "I Wishes."

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But really, maybe it's those blondes I should actually feel sorry for instead of you, you deep-seated, seething jealousy. It has to be hard to hear people say "Oh, you're so beautiful" all the time. But these blondes take it like grown-ups, griting and smiling. Though it just must eat away at their soul. What a dreadful curse to be that sort of pretty. Maybe sometimes they just want to throw up their perfectly blemish-free skin and say, "I can't take it anymore. If being beautiful comes with this price tag, I want a refund." Gosh. What must it be like to constantly hear those heart-wrenching words; I suppose it must feel like a dagger going straight into your heart to know that someone thinks that highly of you.

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Oh, wait, Jealousy, you did give me one useful thing: a good sense of sarcasm. Pretty people have it so easy, don't they? But do they also have the sense of sarcasm that I do, dear Jealousy?

Who's jealous now?

UN-xoxo

sometimes i just don't realize how much I hurt you too..

"Woman was created from the ribs of a man, not from his head to be above him, not from his feet to be walk upon him, but from his side to be equal, near to his arm to be protected, and close to his heart to be loved."

 

*I miss you, but I really can't do anything more than that.